calendar girl, who's in love with the world, stay alive

Suddenly, I had the urge to write. It'll be June in ten hours I can't believe it. Actually, erase that, I CAN believe it. Time really flies so fast. Ever since the year started, too much stuff happened. My life was non-existent at the beginning of the year, it was all about nonchalance. It was basically dull and lifeless. And then some life happened when I went to California, I felt rejuvenated, I felt a lot of happiness. It may be shallow happiness, but it was happiness all the same. I was happy, I was loving life, I talked a lot and I really felt alive. And it went on when I came back to New York.

It really went on, I think I became REALLY happy. For the first time, when I moved far from my home country, I was contented. Somehow, the world agreed: I met interesting people, I gained a couple of friends, I strengthened some personal relationships and I felt loved. Everyday, I'd appreciate the small things that were new to me and other things which kept me fairly enthusiastic. It was really all fun, I would've puked if I were a pessimist. And of course, he was part of the reason I was happy at the time. In my self-proclaimed happiness phase, it really helped that I could share it with someone else. What's the point of any achievement without anyone to share it with anyway? It'll just make you lonely. So it was really helpful he was there. He really WAS.

Currently, I am still happy. Half-happy you could say but at least happy. I'd fool myself if I tell you I am up-in-the-clouds-happy. Some bad stuff happened in between my happy stages and I was, uhm, hurt. It didn't leave a deep wound thankfully, but it left me with a scratch, and an irritating scratch it was. Other than that, yes, I am happy. I am okay. The other aspects of my life are still running. I go out more often now and I have three full months to fool around. It's the summer and that means I have to get some money which is why I'm now serving burgers to spoiled kids in Long Island, and which is also why I need a new bikini.

That's life. Come now, June. I am ready.

playlist 4

Since I posted this on my other blog, might as well put it up here.

Some songs in heavy rotation on my iPod:

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

I especially love Love is Colder than Death here. I can imagine myself listening to it while riding a bike. I am loving The Virgins really, I can only wish I could catch their gigs in the city, they’re native New Yorkers but currently on tour though. Ida Maria’s song gets stuck in my head all the time, listen to it and you’d know why. You probably heard of the Black Kids because of their popular song, I’m Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How to Dance With You, I love it too but I likeLove Me Already better. And of course, I always like some Amy Winehouse music and Lily Allen’s F**k You is just funny with the soft voice and all but some really bitter words.

this blog is not on leave. ha ha

Before I even get started with studying, I decided to hang on to my blog first and not make it rot because of non-updates.  Since reading previous entries can be a little helpful to me and I don't want a future without something I could look back on to, I figured there has to be something in my mind worth blogging about.

Okay, it's May now, four months of 2009 had gone past and I'm freaking out a little bit? One thing, time is too depressing. I hate that time runs so quickly I couldn't keep up with it. Every week is just breezing through me. Right, I felt like I just breezed through this semester. It's already my finals next week and I'll be done after that. I guess I'm a little sad that my Art class is about to end and I have to really be focusing on my major by next semester. Oh yeah, and I was rushed into being a Secretary of the school's Marketing Society but oh well, let's see what comes up this fall.

I don't know but for some reason, I'm not really a fan of the summer in here. Now that the trees are already greener than green, it makes me kinda sad? Ha ha. I know, weird but I prefer the early Spring colors of yellow, pink, white and light green. Dark green everywhere is just depressing, or I guess I'm just not a fan of green things.

Right now, I wanna go back to California. I just miss the fun and the randomness of where we're gonna end up every night. It's just all fun and games without any plans. And being in school now is all about planning. By next month, we're already halfway through the year and I'm scared of a lot of things.

Let's just say that I'm still happy, 2009 is still good. But so many things are just running in my mind right now. I don't know where to start.

this blog is on leave?

HAHA. Recently, I'm just not into writing very long entries and I am uninspired to write anything. So I sorta, kinda, almost moved. I found a place where I post shorter entries instead and I update it almost everyday. I am only telling the url to people I know so just hit me up.

Meanwhile, everyone's styleblogging nowadays, so I finally joined the bandwagon by making an account over Chictopia.com. I don't know if I could keep it really updated because it's going to be a tedious job: taking a picture of what I wore, uploading them, labeling items and all that jazz. But right now, it's all new and fresh to me so I uploaded two photos. Visit my Chictopia HERE.

That's pretty much it. I am loving spring time and I'm just three weeks away from escaping the spring semester. I'm a little busy but things are still running smoothly.

I'll see if I can write something here in the next weeks or months.

XO.

playlist 3

I made you a mixtape! These are my favorite songs as of the moment.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

I just had to put circles on the tape. Ha ha. I hope you like it.

*I realized I already included Silver Lining the last time. Oh well.